Ready or not as this upcoming school year is on the brink of beginning and there are many big things happening this year and I am SO NOT READY!!! But ready or not it is happening.
In a way I feel like I have blinked my eyes and the last 13 years have flown by.
Our oldest is 13 years old and starting this school year as an 8th grader. I can close my eyes and see him as a sweet fresh born baby, it was with him I entered this incredible journey of motherhood and my life was forever better. Such bittersweet desires as part of me longs to keep them babies, small, cuddly and needy while the other part is so happy and excited to see these wonderful and unique people they are each growing into. My heart aches and smiles at the same time.
This evening sitting on the floor with our youngest who is 14 months and requires very close attention as he cruises and crawls into all kinds of potentially dangerous situations, I caught and stopped myself from being a little frustrated that I couldn’t be working on my to do this exactly at this moment. My mind is going a million miles a minute of all the last minute things I need to do to be ready for everyone’s 1st day of school and another very busy week but then I realized I’m going to blink my eyes and this one is going to be heading off to 8th before I am ready.
Only one more year until our oldest is going into high school, less than 3 years until he drives and five more to college! This year we also have one taking another big step and going into kindergarten. Feels like yesterday he was crab crawling along the floor and tomorrow he is putting on his first real book bag and walking into his kindergarten class to start the next part of his journey.
I am SO NOT READY!!
There is some good news though, I don’t have to be ready. Because God’s ready, He is in control and all this is under His power and will. He will prepare me, lead me and guide me. When I need strength He will strengthen me, when I need wisdom He will give me knowledge. I do not have enough strength on my own, I am certainly not wise or courageous enough on my own, I need God to equip me and lead me as a mother, woman and wife.
“You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.”
I must trust God as I let go of each child off to start their new school year. He is big and mighty and He will protect them and surround them. I must cover them in prayer-daily. I must lead by example and show them what it looks like to live a christian, imperfect making mistakes trusting in our Savior and fully relying God life. God is big, sovereign, mighty and wonderful. As hard as it is to believe He loves our children more than we do and He is in control and He is ready when I am not!
“And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.”
Thank You so so so much for the privilege, blessing and honor of being a mother. This is the single most challenging and most rewarding job I will ever have and I am so grateful that You created me to be a mother. Some moments and some days are harder(borderline impossible) but worth every bit of it. God please surround each one of our children this school year. I pray that their influences are good and godly but if they do encounter a difficult or ungodly friend or situation that they are equipped and strong enough to do what is right and honor You. I pray that they are successful academically. Please give them courage, strength and motivation to study and persevere into the young people You desire and created them to be. I pray that they can be a light in this dark world and that in their own way they can shine Your light and love to those around them.
Father please continue to equip in my motherhood journey. I pray I continue to treasure each moment and stage as they grow into these incredibly and wonderfully made young people. Give me discernment, courage, strength, humility and wisdom to show our children Your love and that they grow to serve You and love You. Father thank You for each child as they are each a gift and blessing from You.
In Jesus name Amen.