A conversation frequently starts between me and my husband with him asking me “have you heard…?” Which is normally silly and redundant because we both know that there is is 99.9% chance that I have not yet heard whatever it is he is getting ready to ask me about. For the most part I am clueless to local and national news, politics, and world happenings. I have placed myself into a safe but very blind bubble.
We live in what is considered a ‘rural area’ and I work in a very rural community. I listen to the Christian station on satellite radio in the car, this station has no news or commercials. We do not have cable in our home to watch the news or any local stations. Basically if someone does not tell me about something in person or it is not on my Facebook newsfeed I don’t hear about it. For the most part when things do pop up on my Facebook newsfeed that I want to ignore it is quite easy to just scroll by it without paying much attention.
I like my bubble, it is nice and safe in it and I feel protected. If I don’t have to read about it or hear about it then it is not happening. I rather prefer not having my heart broken daily over the disturbing news stories our fallen society provides day after day. It is my way of shielding my eyes, ears, mind and heart from the evil and sadness that unfold day after day.
Well despite my struggle, even with kicking and fighting my bubble has been popped, a few weeks ago it was stuck with a tiny hole that grows each day. I am now seeing the error in my ways…sitting idly by and ignoring all the evil and sin surrounding us and consuming our society makes me just as guilty as participating.
If I sit by and ignore all the bad, wrong and unjust, immoral events and circumstances am I not as guilty as the ones participating and causing? Burying my head in the sand while our society and world celebrate and glorify sin makes me just as responsible!!! I am SO GUILTY!
The truth is I cannot handle the feelings that reality and the news invoke in me.
I have been so selfish and ignorant keeping up the protective walls of my bubble.
I guess the pin that started poking holes in my bubble is all of the planned parent and abortion news. This stirs something inside of me, emotions that I can not even begin to describe they are so strong and powerful and quite honestly these emotions terrify me. This has always been such a difficult and sensitive topic for me to listen to and talk about, I feel so passionately for the lives of our unborn children that it is a challenging topic for me. I have read quite a few articles and news stories about this but I have not been able to bring myself to watch the videos. I am absolutely petrified to watch them, I know without a doubt that they will break my heart and bring up such traumatic emotions that I honestly do not know if I can handle it. Deep down I know I need to be able to get to the point of being able to watch them, I need to embrace these emotions, learn how to control and direct them and use them take action. I have no idea what, but something I know there has got to be something I can do. Until God opens that door for me I need to draw near to Him. I need to be crying out to Him and asking His strength, courage and guidance.
At the very least, I can pray. This is doing something, I can start to do something by opening my heart, eyes, ears and mind and taking it all to my Heavenly Father. I need to start taking responsibility in making myself aware of what is going on. Open my eyes and ears and work on being more informed and knowledgeable.
“Then when the time is right He will open a door for me to be able to do something, until then I will pray.”
Over the next several weeks I will work at slowly removing the shield of my bubble. Little by little taking it down and exploring everything that is going on in my state, nation and world. When I read and listen to these news stories I will open my heart and pray for each situation that I can. I will lay it all at the feet of Jesus and let Him lead me. Jesus is the only one with the power to save us all, so I will turn to Him.
“Lord, I come before You with so much in my heart tonight. Father please forgive me for being so selfish and ignorant that I have ignored and neglected the suffering of Your children all around me. God I ask you to work in my heart and soften me and make me more self-less and compassionate to all those around me. Help me to move past my bubble and take on what is happening in our sad and sinful world. I pray for strength and courage as I open my eyes and become more aware of the fallen state of our world right now. Please guide me and lead me to be the follower of Christ You have made me to be. Father I am weak and You are strong, please strengthen me. I pray the the passion and emotion I feel when I learn more about the news and politics driving our fallen society doesn’t cripple me but move me to take action to help. I pray to be a better example of Your love and sacrifice. I pray to be a light in our world of dark and to shine the light of Your Love to all those around me. Father let me rise up and face this challenge. I pray I can bring You glory in all I do. Thank You for blessing me and my family so abundantly. Thank You for Your love and mercy, thank You for sending Your son to die for our sins, Thank You Father for Your Grace. In Jesus name Amen.”
“Dear friends, I urge you, as foreigners and exiles, to abstain from sinful desires, which wage war against your soul. Live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day he visits us. Submit yourselves for the Lord’s sake to every human authority: whether to the emperor, as the supreme authority, or to governors, who are sent by him to punish those who do wrong and to commend those who do right. For it is God’s will that by doing good you should silence the ignorant talk of foolish people. Live as free people, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as God’s slaves. Show proper respect to everyone, love the family of believers, fear God, honor the emperor.” 1 Peter 2:11-17 NIV